You're Good and Your Love is Great..

To be honest, I have no idea what to say or how to explain what it feels like to believe in something that is not only  bigger than yourself, but that is 100% out of your control. To believe in something so incredibly strong that you know that you will still believe it when you are 90..to know that even if the other side is never obedient and never submissive you will still know that what God placed in your heart was truth because He cannot lie.. it goes completely against His character..to believe in something so passionately that the majority of those who catch wind of it would rather throw stones at you for believing in something glorious than to give even a glance to the Heavenlies.

So no, words will never suffice in explanation. I can only keep walking or maybe most days just standing back up. This is my journey though, the assignment I have been allotted and even if it kills me I will believe only what my Father tells me..for His words are the only words that last.. and I will ponder them deep in my heart learning to become more private as I travel on. So I ask you to continue to pray for me as I travel through the wilderness and press on toward the earthly goal I have been created for.

I love you Jesus please use me as a light for this dark world. Grant me courage to finish this leg of my race. I love you more than life! You are my destiny and my Lord forevermore. Help me Jesus to shoulder my cross in silent abandon. I love you I love you I love you. People..He loves you, He loves you, He loves you. Listen to Him.

Luke 14:5-34

One day when large groups of people were walking along with him, Jesus turned and told them, "Anyone who comes to me but refuses to let go of father, mother, spouse, children, brothers, sisters—yes, even one's own self!—can't be my disciple. Anyone who won't shoulder his own cross and follow behind me can't be my disciple.

 ^28-30"Is there anyone here who, planning to build a new house, doesn't first sit down and figure the cost so you'll know if you can complete it? If you only get the foundation laid and then run out of money, you're going to look pretty foolish. Everyone passing by will poke fun at you: 'He started something he couldn't finish.'

 ^31-32"Or can you imagine a king going into battle against another king without first deciding whether it is possible with his ten thousand troops to face the twenty thousand troops of the other? And if he decides he can't, won't he send an emissary and work out a truce?

 ³³"Simply put, if you're not willing to take what is dearest to you, whether plans or people, and kiss it good-bye, you can't be my disciple.

 ³⁴"Salt is excellent. But if the salt goes flat, it's useless, good for nothing.

   "Are you listening to this? Really listening?"